A Letter to my 18 Year Old Self
Congratulations, you finally have more ownership of your life! I know you are anxious to get out of school and experience the world, but I have a few words of wisdom that I hope will help you as you transition from high school to college and then out into the real world. I know you’ve probably heard sayings such as “these are the best years of your life” or conversely “whatever happened in high school doesn’t really matter in the real world”. In some ways, these sayings are true and false. For some people, the high school years are some of the best years of your life. For others, the best is yet to come. You fall under the “best is yet to come” category. The life that you spent so much time imagining during the last years of high school won’t pan out quite the way you are hoping, but the crazy ride will be worth it down the road.
Your life is going to change in ways you imagined, but never thought would be a reality. Sadly, you put your writing career off to the side for many years, but don’t worry you will pick it up and start having success with it thanks to the hard work you put into it. You will get to work in television, but you will not spend a lot of time working on a set and you won’t cross paths with a lot of famous people. That’s ok, by the time you’ve been in the business for a few years, you’ll be at peace with what you’ve learned about show business. That is when you will find happiness with your true calling, being a writer.
Relationships will continue to be difficult for you for many years, but it doesn’t have to be that way. You are way better than you are giving yourself credit for. Don’t let what the kids are saying about you affect your confidence. You are awesome just the way you are. Don’t get into anything too serious too early in your life, but don’t second guess yourself too much either. Taking a leap of faith and going for it when it seems right will help you with your confidence. It will make all the difference in the world. Sure, the life I created for you is a good one. The journey will be worth it, but don’t sell yourself short either.
When it comes to school, don’t listen to Dad. He is out of touch and doesn’t know what is best for you. They always say you should listen to your parents, but this is one of those situations where you shouldn’t. Don’t let his negative attitude about you and life interfere with your goals and the gifts you know you have. Try studying TV Production. You will feel at peace with yourself just from having the experience, but don’t put that pen and paper (or in the future keyboard) away. You have a gift. You write better than most people. Stick with it and improve your skills. You’ll be glad you did!
Move away from home as soon as possible. Reading, PA and the people you know are only going to hold you back and depress the hell out of you. Marc, you are awesome and have so much to offer. You deserve so much better than the existence you have. Don’t listen to all of the negative feedback mom and dad are giving you. You’ll have no problem going out there and taking care of yourself. By the time you get into your late 20’s and early 30’s, you will know this.